I have decided to have WLS...

I have decided to have Weight Loss Surgery. I have chosed to have VSG (Vertical Sleeve Gastroectomy). What it does is they cut out 75-85% of your stomach. There is no intestinal re-routing. They are simply stapling the stomach and removing the portion that makes you hungry. I will post the actual techincal wording later. The weightloss is slower than the other surgeries and that is a plus. As posted before I have been dealing with my weight for years and I have decided that I want to be healthy.  I'm so tired of not being able to buy clothes off the rack. If I do it is ugly t-shirts with big prints. I want to be able to buy bra's and panties that match! Something sexy. I just want to be normal and by normal I mean back into an 11-12 or a 9-10! I want to be able to use my knees without pain and not have my back ache everyday. I want to be able to get out of bed and not have my feet swell up in the middle of the night. I want to not worry that I am having a heart attack because of the excess weight on my heart.
I have been hiding in my home for almost 2 years. I have successfully avoided several events where others (my friends and aquaintences) would see me. I try and go to the store at night when most people are in bed or if I go during the day I will go to the store a town away. Does anyone related to me?
I'm not scared to have the surgery. My husband does not support me at all. I assume because he is afraid that I will leave him if I get thin. There is a very small chance of that happening. When you lose weight you shed more than just pounds. Sometimes you shed spouses. I made vows however that we would be together until the end and I take my vows very seriously.
I am not happy! It took my a long time to finally admit that I wasn't happy. I thought it was my marriage at first. It might still be a little bit of that, but I realized what I wasn't happy with was me and my weight! I cry daily. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't exercise because it kills my knees and back. I can't breath and I start to hyperventilate. I have tried everything under the sun and I am at my wits end and I am ready. Ready for my new life to begin. I just hope my husband gets on board.

With Love & Laughter,
Sunshine