Day 6 Pre-Op

So it has been 6 days.  Day 1 and 2 were really rough, Day 3-5 were a little better, however Aunt Flo showed up at the end of Day 5 and the hunger and cravings have been horrible!  I cheated and had a little piece of chicken.  I am so mad at myself that I caved but my stomach has been growling so much it actually started to make me ill.  I am down 8 lbs.though which is awesome. 

I am still waiting for my sister to have her baby.  She is now a week overdue!  Ugh!  She is as upset about it as I am.

I am so ready for spring!  I cannot wait to get outside with my new sleeve and do some gardening.  Back on track tommorrow and hopefully get a video posted. 

Day 1 Pre-Op Diet

I'm starving! Whomever said this would be easy is lying through their teeth! My stomach has been growling all day. The protein shakes are giving me heart burn/acid reflux, I need meat! Just a small piece of chicken...that's all I need! I have wanted this for so long and now after day 1 I am second guessing myself. Have I made the right decision? By doing this 3 week liquid diet I get to mourn the loss of food before I even have the surgery and then after the surgery I can't have the foods so I get to mourn again. It doesn't seem fair. My sister is due to have her baby any day now and I will have to travel to be with her. How am I going to handle hours of waiting with her in the hospital? I'm going to need energy to help her and be able to take care of my daughter. What do I do? Suck on a protein shake all day and say don't mind my growling stomach, no I'm not hungry. I'm really trying but....


With Love & Laughter,

Things I have purchased for my new life after surgery..

I will be posting a video this weekend of what I have purchased for my surgery and for my new life after.  I found my cocktail silverware at Crate & Barrel and World Market online.  It was way more than I wanted to spend but at the same time I can also use them for parties and such (I don't really have parties but I may when I can rock a cocktail dress).  I am still on a search for protein drinks so again let me know what worked for you.  I did try Muscle Milk and Atkins and they seem to be at the top of the ok list.  As soon as I can get protein from other sources I will.  Can't stand the shakes!

Countdown to 21 day Pre-Op Diet:  10 Days

It is finally happening!

I did not get a big fat check from Santa Claus in my stocking but my Mother In Law has graciously loaned me the money so I can have my surgery!  I can never thank her enough for helping me get this life saving procedure! I cannot wait, I am so excited!  I will be having it on Valentines Day, what a better gift of love could I ever give myself?  Follow me on YouTube and watch me go through my liquid pre-op diet...I'm sure it is going to be a hoot!  http://www.youtube.com/user/SunshineWillBeSkinny

Sooo.....

I started this blog several years ago when life was kicking me in the gut.  There were several posts that I had made but never published.  I am publishing them now.  I want others to know that they are not alone in this struggle with weight loss or life.  Full disclosure?  Maybe.  I hope to have some good news soon.   Perhaps even a scheduled surgery date.  Keep your fingers crossed and keep praying for me.


With Love & Laughter,
Sunshine

Happy New Year!

Well everyone I made it through 2010 even though it really really sucked!  I have to say the last 3 years have been really bad for me.  But that is in the past now.  I am moving onwards and upwards.  I did not get a "Big Fat Check" from Santa in my stocking but my husband did buy me new carry-on luggage for my flight.  It has the 4 spinning wheels.  I may exchange it as it is just a plain black bag and well if you know me it needs to have some type of color or bling on it.  I found one on Amazon.com that I like in pink.  I'm going to think about it for a bit.  I hope you are all keeping your fingers crossed and are sending up prayers for me still.  I have one more avenue to try to get funding for my surgery and God willing it is actually going to work this time.  The year 2011 is going to bring me a new life, new health, new clothes, new hope, profound faith and most of all healing. 

I will be spending most of the day packing away the Christmas decorations and will check in to Obesity Help and my YouTube friends during my breaks. 

With Love and Laughter,
Sunshine