Thursday, December 30, 2010

Give Away on Melting Mama

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Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Jeans and other things..........

I am not a fashionista and I only buy clothes when they are worn out or look like they need to be thrown out.  Well I am so fat now that I busted the seams out of my favorite pair of jeans.  I have been trying to find something that fits but I have to say WTH?!!!!  Every pair of jeans I try on fall below my "natural waistline".  Why does the fashion industry find it necessary for fat women to expose our muffin tops?  It is disguisting!  I'm 36 years old and I am longing for a pair of "Mom Jeans"!  C'mon people!  Fat needs to be covered up!  I don't know anyone who enjoys looking at someones butt crack because you people do not make a pair of jeans with a high enough waist to cover it!  You shouldn't have to tug and pull your jeans up all day long because they are falling down.  You shouldn't have to wear a thong because your granny panties stick 5-6 inches out of your pants!  Bring back jeans with a freakin' waist!  And while I'm on my rant....just because they make it people doesn't mean you should wear it!  If your more than a size 12, do not wear a mini skirt!  It just isn't pretty and it doesn't matter what size you are, tube tops should be banned!

With Love & Laughter,
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Saturday, December 18, 2010

Why do I want WLS?

Let's make a list of the reasons I need this surgery. These are things that I have never done or just can't do due to my size or shame of my size.
  • To be able to wrap a bath towel around myself and have it stay up
  • To wear my seat belt comfortably
  • So my ass will fit on a picinic bench and not hang over it
  • To have really good sex again
  • Wear fashionable clothes
  • Sing more solos
  • Keep a clean tidy home
  • Have more energy
  • Be Healthy
  • Have another baby
  • Get rid of Pre-Diabetes/Insulin Resistance
  • Eliminate PCOS
  • Wear high heels
  • Not worry about breaking chairs or the weight limit on a lawn chair
  • Be able to play with my daughter outside and on the ground
  • I would love to run
  • To get off of medication
  • To not die of heart disease
  • To actively run my business
  • To put myself out there and get a job
The list can go on and on but I will stop here for now.  Thanks for stopping by.

With Love & Laughter,
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Pity Party...Do Not Enter if you do not want whine with your cheeze!

Hey guys,
I'm having a really bad year....or should I say life?!  Nothing is going right!  I don't want to go into details but I will say that because someone drug his feet and didn't take care of the situation when I said too, we are now in over our heads and our lives will never be the same!  I will probably never get my surgery and I will remain fat and probably become divorced because of it. 

All I want for Christmas is to have my surgery in January so I can start over.  So I can have a slight chance of having another baby.  So I can be able to get a job. So maybe even have a chance of saving my marriage which is in the crapper.  OMG!  It would be so nice not to have to wear ugly clothes and dress nice for once in my life. I dream of a size 8 or 10 but would even settle for a 12!  To be able to wear a cute boot with a heel, a sassy shirt or The Little Black Dress!  I have never worn a Little Black Dress.  I bought many years ago a Black Sequin Tank dress in a size 8/9.  I would love to be able to wear it at least once before I die.  It was purchased as a goal dress.  Obviously I never made it to goal.  If I have surgery in January than there is a good chance that I might be able to wear it in 2011!  Maybe make my husband take me out on New Years Eve instead of me being ok with him working because I don't want anyone to see me.

I pray that things don't turn out the way they are headed.  I pray that I will have surgery and I pray that in the end my marriage can be saved and that it isn't too late.

With Love & Laughter,
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Wednesday, December 1, 2010


It's the waiting and the unknown that can drive a person mad!  I'm on and YouTube all the time. I am so gobsmacked (I think that is how you say it) by all the people who are just like me in their struggles with weight loss but they got to have surgery and I am still sitting here on the sidelines cheering everyone on and at the same time hating all of you because you get to move on with your lives and I am still here....STUCK!

Will you all pray for me?  Pray that God will provide the financing I desperately need to have my surgery.  I thank all of my followers and as I go through all of these ups and downs that I can help someone else out there in my same situation.

With Love & Laughter,
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Saturday, November 27, 2010


We went to my Mother In-Laws for dinner (actually my sister in-laws house) and it snowed! I was so happy!  I love the snow!  However when we returned home there was no snow here so I was a bit dissapointed.

Do you know I weighed myself before I left and then I weighed myself when I got home and I gained 7 lbs.! I didn't snack and I really did avoid the cookies.  Now I did eat Pumpkin Pie and Green Bean Casserole and Turkey of course.  But not as much as I normally do every year. I cannot wait until we have the money saved up or able to get a loan so I can have my VSG (weight loss) surgery and gallbladder removed! Better to look under the hood once and get everything fixed at the same time...right? I really wish that is wasn't excluded on our insurance policy! I'm all for certain aspects of Obama Care but there needs to be something in there stating that Weight loss programs/Weightloss Surgery should be covered!

With Love & Laughter,
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Friday, November 26, 2010

Welcome to my blog!

I have been documenting my journey on YouTube and thought it might be easier to document via blog as well. You can view my YouTube videos by clicking on the tab above. 
I plan on having the VSG (Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy) as soon as I have the means to do so.  Life keeps getting in the way.  Bare with me as I get my blog up and running.  I still have a lot to do on it but in the end I hope to have documented all my protein trials, weight losses, weight gains, vitamin samplings and day to day life in the extreme effort to get my life saving surgery.

With Love & Laughter,
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